I’ve been div0rced 5 years. I’m a woman of 46 years old. I have had one affair after my div0rce but the gentleman wasn’t humble, he wasn’t even in love with me. It was just my money and some ¡rresponsible things he was doing, despite having two children himself. I was three years older than him.
I felt he was embarrassing so I had to end things. It’s been two years since we ended things. Two months ago a guy came to service my air conditioner, he’s young, just about 22/23 years old.
He said he started learning after 1st degree. Very calm and spoke nicely. I was to see him like a son but I was lusting after him so badly that I couldn’t hold it. I forced myself on him and he actually gave in and we had sex.
I paid him for his service and gave him some extra money for agreeing to sleep with me. I didn’t take his contact because I didn’t want what happened to repeat itself, I felt like he was too young so my pride took over me. We agreed that he comes to service it once in 4 months or a while so I’m sure he would come around again.
The thing is I’m pregnant. I never imagined it. I haven’t had sezz at all in two years, and the one I had with my ex wasn’t even proper, so I can say I haven’t really had anything good in the past five years.
For the first time that I’ve felt like a woman in 5 years, I’m pregnant at the age of 46. Can you imagine? I really don’t want this at all. I have four children and I’m done. I don’t want kids anymore, talk alone of having some little boy as the father.
The doctors here, what would be the implications of trying an ab0rtion at my age? I’m so worried, I don’t want to stress my system, I can’t handle it. I fear keeping this would be detrimental to my health. I don’t want to take any chances. I just want to live and enjoy my life. I’m restless and scared for my life. How do I get rid of this safely?
